Diary of a First Tattoo
Today I went for my first ever tattoo. It was a big deal for me, made bigger by the fact that I’m the sort of person who worries about every single thing that could go wrong as if all of them could happen at once. But it was also a big deal because I’d wanted one for so long and had begun to think I’d die before I ever got my nerve up.
So, I hit my interim target on the diet and used that as an excuse to book myself in at the studio I’d had recommended. I chose a design of a small black cross, thinking I would test out my reaction on something small and work my way up. Very appropriately, I got the appointment on Ash Wednesday, which felt right – to be marked with a painful black cross on a day of penance.
Last night and this morning I was so anxious and afraid that I almost suggested to myself that I didn’t have to go through with it. I didn’t sleep, and I arrived at the studio, thankfully quite early (10.30am), in a state of nerves. However, I passed myself off as a normal person while he was applying the transfer of my design to my shoulder. Then I was distracted by the setting up of the needles (removed from sterile wrapping in my presence.) They look huge! I mean, way bigger than sewing machine needles. But they’re actually a bundle of smaller needles all contained together. I’m not sure if that makes it better.
After bracing myself for what would come, I was surprised, relieved and even strangely disappointed that it wasn’t really what I would consider painful at all. I think he was very good. I had told him I was ridiculously sensitive and had a low pain threshold, and he started off very slowly, with quick touches that I didn’t really start to feel before they were over. Even when I’d relaxed a bit and he’d got a bit more heavy handed, he’d always stop just before ‘that’s strange and hot and maybe even uncomfortable’ crossed the line into ‘that’s painful.’
When it was done, I had a look at it in the mirror and absolutely loved the look of it. Though I suspect now that I was in the kind of elevated mood where I would have loved anything. I certainly was on a bit of an endorphin high for an hour or two afterwards. However – word of warning – when the high wore off about one and a half hours after getting it, I then felt like I had a mild case of shock afterwards. I felt shaky and sick for at least the next three hours.
Anyway, he covered it in clingfilm and told me to wash it in 2 hours, then re-cover it, and to repeat that every 8 hours thereafter. I’m to keep the clingfilm on for the first two days, and then use ointment to keep it soft thereafter until it’s finished healing in about 3 weeks. That way he says it should not scab at all. Watch this space to find out if it works like that!
I took this very bad photo immediately after washing and recovering it the first time
(What, it was hard to photograph my own shoulder! I had to hold the camera upside down and look in the viewfinder in a mirror.)
Right now it appears to be seeping black liquid under the clingfilm. I hope this is normal. I have Googled on the subject and find that seeping plasma is normal, but I always thought plasma was clear/yellow rather than black. Hope I’m not losing ink, but again, watch this space tomorrow to see how that turns out 🙂 I thought I would update each day on the progress, as I haven’t been able to find anyone else who’s done so and it could be useful to other tattoo newbies.
Go you!
You are SO BRAVE!!!!!
Hee! Thanks Jan 🙂 It certainly was the sort of thing that afterwards you wondered what you were worried about, but beforehand seemed like an enormous deal.
Thanks Kelley! Now to try not to ruin it while it heals 🙂
When i got my first one i went small cuz i didnt know if i could handle the pain. But it wasnt bad my leg fell asleep. My second one hurt its a vine with flowers that starts on the top of foot and wraps around ankle and up my leg a bit.
Wow Alex – congrats on making it that far, I think I would have chickened out at the sight of the needle! 🙂
*g* Thanks, Becks! I have to admit, they really gave me a qualm, but I reckoned that far fewer people would get tattooed if it was really as bad as the needles made it look, and fortunately that was right – it wasn’t 🙂
Its painful but not too bad. Id do it again though. It wouldnt of been so bad if i wasnt so ticklish.
You’re definitely more hardcore than me. If I have another one it’ll be chosen so that it’s in another place where it doesn’t hurt 🙂
= ) actually im really nervous when i go. If i was to go by myself i wouldve never gotten them done.
I’ve never really been in a position of having someone I could take with me, so I’ve got used to doing things on my own. It’s not that bad, actually. At least you don’t have to be constantly thinking about someone else’s reactions and comfort, you can just do things as they suit you.
Thats true. But for me if i go by myself i might wimp out. They are addicting i am ready for my next one. I hope you love yours.
Thank you! Good luck with your next one 🙂
I’ll be following the progress. I’m like you, been wanting one for a while but too chicken. So I’m proud of you for going through with it, esp alone! My mom keeps saying she’s going to get a tat, and I’ve been waiting to see how it goes for her.
So far everything has been so easy that it’s almost anti-climactic. (Not that I want it to go any harder!) The process itself was far from difficult – it was almost relaxing and I had a good chat with the tattooist. I’ve made the aftercare worse for myself by not knowing what to expect and therefore being anxious about it. But really it hasn’t been anything to worry about, and I’m no longer sure why I thought it was such a big deal.
I guess what I’m saying is that there’s no need at all to be worried. Have you thought about a design? Choosing a design was the big step towards getting me over the psychological barrier to getting one. Well, that and finding a local shop with a good reputation.